Unthinkable.

I just love this song -it reminds me of John because I gave him a difficult time in the beginning due to some hurt I carried with me from a past relationship. He knew things just felt so right and refused to give up on "us" - no matter how much I pushed away. For that, I love him. He could have just let me walk, but he saw something I couldnt see yet. Our potential.

This song to me, is about completely giving yourself over to someone, despite fighting feelings that are "impossible to ignore." I am especially reminded of John when Alicia sings, "I know you said to me 'This is exactly how it should feel when its meant to be'. Time is only wasting so why wait for eventually?" because I remember being in the car and John saying something similar to me.

I am also reminded of him,

"Why give up before we try Feel the lows before the highs Clip our wings before we fly away I can't say I can't compare I'm suspended it the air Won't u come be in the sky with me"

So John, if you are reading this, this will be my song to you. For standing by me. For loving me, despite my many faults. For not giving up on me."

...If you ask me, I'm ready <3

Alicia Keys- "Unthinkable"

Moment of honesty

Someones gotta take the lead tonight

Whose it gonna be?

I'm gonna sit right here

And tell u while it comes to me

If u have something to say

U should say it right now

U give me a feeling that I never felt before

(And I deserve it, I know I deserve it0

It's become something that's impossible to ignore

And I can't take it

I was wondering maybe

Could I make you my baby?

If we do the unthinkable

will it make us look crazy

If you ask me I'm ready

If you ask me I'm ready

I know u said to me

"This is exactly how it should feel when it's meant to be"

Time is only wasting so why wait for eventually

If we gonna do something about it

We should do it right now

U give me a feeling that I never felt before

(And I deserve it, I know I deserve it)

It's become something that's impossible to ignore

It's what we make it

I was wondering maybe

Could I make you my baby

If we do the unthinkable

will it make us look crazy

Or would it be so beautiful

either way I'm sayin

If you ask me I'm ready

If you ask me I'm ready

Why give up before we try

Feel the lows before the highs

Clip our wings before we fly away

I can't say I can't compare

I'm suspended it the air

Won't u come be in the sky with me

I was wondering maybe

Could I make you my baby

If we do the unthinkable

will it make us look crazy

Or would it be so beautiful

either way I'm sayin

If you ask me I'm ready

If you ask me I'm ready "